Wings

"What are these things that look like wings? What are they doing on me? What are these things that look like wings? Is somebody trying to tell me something?

I was born to fly. Teach me how to fly. Maybe I could fly, high!"

*Julie De Azevedo, Wings

It's Just How My Brain Works

My mind is only capable of simple thoughts right now. So, another edition of Random Thoughts for your enjoyment.

- There are certain people in this world that need to realize what they have before they let it go. Because once it's gone, it's not likely to come back.

- If I ever get married, I want my wedding song to be "I'll Be" by Edwin McCain.

- Harry Potters books are scary! Not as scary as mascots, but scary enough that I can't read at night anymore.

- I didn't want to talk to you either last night!

- My hair is finally manageable. I ended up with a cut that's a cross between the Jenny McCarthy and Katie Holms I was debating. It's taken a week to look cute. But I'm not crazy about the color.

It Always Goes Back to the Music

I think Natasha Beddington says it best...

"the rest is still unwritten..."

Turn, Turn, Turn

"To every thing there is a time and a purpose..." Or something like that.

This pretty much sums up how I'm feeling right now. I have never been one who likes change, but I know change is an essential part of my eternal growth and development. Maybe I'll learn something this time around. You never know.

I don't want to go into all the details on my blog, so maybe this post won't make much sense to you. For those of you closest to me, you'll know what I'm talking about.

One thing I do know. When one door closes, another truly does open.

Random Thoughts

There are a million and a half things running through my mind right now and not enough time to sort it all out. Therefore, a random posting of random thoughts.

- I love General Conference weekend. I know I sound like a great big nerd for saying that, but I do, I love it. I was fed spiritually.

- I was also fed physically this weekend. I made the most delicous (and low-fat) pumpkin chocolate chip cookies.

- The air feels incredible right now. It's not hot and it's not cold. It's just right. (That's right, Goldilocks knew what she was talking about.)

- I have an increased desire to be better and do better. I'm going to make a list of goals to work on. (That's right, goals. And it's not even New Year's yet!)

- I went to play with a friend of mine on Friday night. For the first time in a long time, I saw the old friend that I've loved for all these years. She's never left my life, but for the last little while she's been different. Friday, I saw a return of her old self.

- I want to live a life where I can be more in tune with the Spirit of the Lord.

- I watched a video of an extended family reunion from 1990 on Sunday. Why did I always think I was so fat as a teenager? Seriously, I had the tiniest waist!

- On that note, I think I'm going to find a spinning class and go to it. I like spinning, but I don't want to join a gym.

- Do I really want to build my freelance business? Should I?

- Life is short. And sometimes life is tragically taken from us before we feel it's time. I want to live a better life.

- I'm not a wife or a mother and I don't expect to be a either anytime in the near future. But I want to be a better homemaker.

I can't concentrate

Yes, I probably should be doing something a little more productive than blogging, but I just can't concentrate right now. When I went out for lunch, I ran into a guy that works here, but he is in my old department. He works in our other building so I don't see him very often. All I can say is, he looked good! And boy do I wish I looked cute today (it's one of those days when I don't like my outfit and I just don't feel very attractive). But that's besides the point. Seeing him just reminded me of how "things used to be" and I really want that time back!

It's been almost a year since I started this job (October 9 to be exact). When I made the change, it was one of the most difficult decisions I've ever had to make. I wasn't exactly unhappy with my old job, but I knew that I had reached my growth point there. I couldn't go anywhere else in the company and I wasn't being challenged anymore. The opportunity to work at my current job came up and I knew it was an answer to my prayers. So I took it.

And I was really happy. I loved the people I worked with. I loved my responsibilities. For the first time in years, I loved coming into work!

But that's all gone now. One person's decision. One person who couldn't play well with others. And the rest of us are suffering because of his actions.

It's not like it's horrible, it's just not the way it was. And I miss those times.

New Hairstyle

I am in desperate need of a new hairstyle. Right now, it just hangs there and is not cute.

I can't make up my mind what kind of cut I should get...Katie Holmes or Jenny McCarthy.

What do you think?

Now, before I hear all the "you should grow it out" arguments, there are a few things about my hair that you should now.

- My hair does not grow long - it grows out.

- It is naturally curly and very thick. I usually have to get my hair thinned when I get a cut, that's how thick it is.

- Before I went to Europe, I got a reverse perm on my hair to help control the frizzies. (I did not want a repeat of the NYC hair!) Now, it's straight, but also pretty damaged.

I probably won't have a chance to get to my hairstylist for another couple of weeks, so I'm open to suggesetions!

It's October

October is here. And that means that Birthday Month is officially over. I'm a little sad to see it go.

I'm determined to keep the momentum and excitement of birthday month going into October. Afterall, the leaves have turned, candy corns are out in full force, my house is decorated with "harvest" decorations, and it's only a few more weeks until I can officially listen to Christmas music.

Here's to another great month!